Tuesday, December 9, 2008

avoidance

As time goes by, i hav slowly catched up with my fully russian medium course. time is nvr enough for me to finish studying for every single subject, not only that, not enough to study finish the whole chapter for each class.. quite sad actually.. but what to do ? only to constantly read n train myself up to cope up with russian words and i believe "what i reap, is what i sow". study more n focus more!

"the thing that u fear most, it will surely comes to u ". it is very true in our lives. if u r scared of failing the exam, u will surely fail. i m not a super smart student, all i hav is a heart to serve after i graduate. i dun need much attention, i just need encouragement, as everybody does. the more desire i hav to study n go for it, the more i realize that things r just going well if i hav done my part n my Father will take care of the rest.

a simple answer to a complicated question, but not many ppl will accept the simple answer because it is a simple answer to a complicated question. humans r just too proud n we think we r like Him but actually who is greater? when i can't differentiate who is bad n who is good , how can i compare myself with my Father? who we r n how we lives matter to Him. character can be shaped nicely n wounds can be healed when we open our hearts to Him. avoiding n keep everything to urself isn't going to bring u to anywhere, maybe to the trap in darkness. no matter what u r going thru, He knows better than anyone on this earth, He is still the same God y'day , today n forever!

when i feel hurt, i tell myself, at least i know my Father still loves me. And He taught me, when i feel hurt because i care of that person, so the words that he uttered, or his actions struck me sometimes. what would u do if u care? i will love that person just like my Father loves me. ppl will ask, what abt the hurt that the person has caused? well , btw hurt n care, which one seems to be more friendly to me? care , of course! focus on the "care"! what would i do with "care" ? show it! how ? love! love with actions but not by words!

Jesus is the only way to our Father. this is an answer. a simple fact that needs u to believe by faith not by sight.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

simply

I like to listen to music while blogging. Well, not so often i will write blogs, but nowadays, i type faster than i write, so why not just blog instead of writing in a diary? :D

supposingly i should study at this time, but seems to have no motivation at all, so choose to do some other things first, then only will study. just now read a few blogs, discover something, which is ppl tend to write blogs instead of finding friends to chit-chat. Maybe that is the power of the IT in this modern world, write whatever u wan n face this cold screen, nobody will say anything n commend anything. Even though ppl will commend, they will just leave comments, that doesn't hurtful at all , rather than telling a friend ur problems n then maybe get the response which is not the response that u wan. In this world, on this earth, relationship is built up only for benefit, for convenience, it seems.. quite sad.. "trust" this word doesn't exist in many ppl's hearts anymore.. darkness all over the world, in ppl's hearts too..

i like morning coz it is a gift from God for me to live one more day again. slowly i m learning how to appreciate the whole day that He has given me. i still hav a lot to learn, in many ways, i m imperfect, always. i get discouraged easily. somehow, He still sustain me n He teaches me new things thru many ways. i learnt not to be fussy, self-centered, selfish n hav self-control when things aren't not going my way. i dun hope much in this earthly life, but in eternal life. i said before, even though u dun believe in me or trust me, YOU HAVE TO TRUST GOD. if u say there is no God, but what if there is God?

God bless u..